Door open to new wind

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A way to see once more

what felt hidden,

forgotten,

dust gathered in the corners,

a leaf grew thin

one wish hiding

inside moonlight,

still hopeful

loving hand

will unleash new joy,

gather loss

and happy laughter

into a world

of ever-lasting grays

and no more lies.

Hunting for that one truth

that heart could dwell in

for lifetimes

left you alone,

in sea of torment,

you tried to let thoughts flow,

you left in waterfall

the sun you held inside,

your love was turned

to new horizons,

and yet,

you felt

only the darkness

outside this door

desert or ocean,

no answer to your soul,

no whisper

to give loving breath,

sighs underwater,

and a cloud,

darker with every song untold,

thunder blooming unrest.

You wanted,

let go,

craved the loss,

unending happy ever after

became your fear

and the end,

you never dared to touch,

in waking

or in dreams.

Breathe deep night air,

moon dim

and shadowed,

your friends forgotten

in revenge,

all cries, memories long ago,

you don't remember

what it felt like,

to love and be loved back,

to hug

in pure joy,

no fear to surrender

that moment

that unites

each kindred heart

in fateful dance,

in destiny

arrived

once more.

A birthday cake left to the spiders,

cobwebs on laughter

and the tears,

no one tasted your song,

the words

fell into dark abyss,

never to fly

again.

Back into sadness

and this longing

that keeps smile frozen

in remembrance,

you cannot tell what it means

to be still

alive,

beloved,

held in warm hugs,

adored,

it rains inside your heart,

each fiery touch coming closer

to soul room

and a pyre,

you add all that was you,

let go,

and dive

into forever darkness

of heart

and soul,

never at peace

grace torn

from loving skies.

© 2022 Amy Christie