My husband refuses to let me go to his friend's wedding. I pushed back and now we're fighting.

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My husband and I were invited to his friends's wedding back in the fall. Today is the wedding, and I am pregnant. I was aware that attending would be difficult due to my pregnancy, but we had RSVP'd anyway. I figured it was far enough from my due date that I wouldn't have to worry about going into labor or anything.

This morning, my husband told me that his other friend, who will also be attending the wedding, asked if we could drive him to and from the wedding from our house. The friend plans to drink, and doesn't want to drive back from the wedding drunk. My husband didn't say yes, he said he'd talk to me first. I was immediately against it. I explained that, first off, that doesn't solve the drunk driving issue, and it would just make us personally responsible because he's not going to immediately sober up on the 20-minute ride from the wedding to our house. If he's visibly drunk, I'm going to feel obligated to invite him inside, and I don't want that. I'm very pregnant, tired, and I've only met this guy twice. Secondly, it's hard enough for me to get myself going and ready knowing that everyone around me is probably going to be getting drunk and having a good time, while I have to stay sober and become my husband and his friend's chauffeur.

My husband immediately got defensive and mad. He asked why I was even going then if it was going to be such a hassle. When I explained my reasoning again, he yelled that he doesn't even want me to go to the wedding. When he got home, he had preheated the oven to put a pizza in for us for lunch. As we fought, he turned off the stove and said "make your own food then." I wasn't even really hungry, but it was still an incredibly immature move, and he frequently does things like this during arguments. He was also being very sarcastic and nasty through the whole argument/interaction. When I started crying, he said "go ahead and cry." I called him an asshole.

Throughout this whole pregnancy and especially right now, I feel like he hasn't cared about my feelings or what I'm going through. I feel like I'm going through my emotions totally alone. I have a counselor and a psychiatrist, and I'm on medication to help with my depression and anxiety, but therapy and meds aren't going to solve the problem of my husband not giving any care about my emotions.

I've been so low-functioning throughout this pregnancy, and my husband has done so much. He's taken care of the grocery shopping, painted the whole nursery, taken out the trash and recycling, made me food almost every day, cleaned, fed our cats and changed their litter boxes, and done literally all of the physical labor. I also can't financially support myself with my full-time job, especially now that my OB has taken me down to 30 hours a week. I could try working more hours, but I'm already so stressed and drained as it is. I feel like I'll have a mental breakdown if I take on more. So, I'm tied to him because of physical and financial needs.

He's my husband, and I still love him. He kisses me and my belly goodbye every day before work, tells our cats and bird that he loves them too before he goes out the door. He's broken down to me about how overwhelmed he's felt during my pregnancy, like the world is on his shoulders. How he doesn't feel he's doing enough financially for our family. I'm emotionally tied as well, and it's not easy.

However, every time we fight, the harsh words and contempt come out, along with the immature behavior. How am I supposed to go to this wedding now when he told me straight up that he doesn’t want me there? If I stay home, all I can do is be here and wallow, and wait for him to come home for likely another fight to start up. If I go, I’ll spend the whole time thinking about what he said and that I’m not wanted there, by my own husband.