I've been a student in the UK for 6 years. But my family in the US is getting older, and I'm torn about moving back to be with them.

• Scarlett Kiaras-Attari, 24, grew up romanticizing the idea of living in the UK.
• In 2018, she moved to Edinburgh for her undergraduate studies and later pursued her master's and Ph.D.
• She recently considered moving back to the US to be closer to family.

This as-told-to essay is based on a conversation with Scarlett Kiaras-Attari, a marketing executive and education content creator who moved to the UK for her studies. It has been edited for length and clarity.

I knew from a young age that I wanted to live in the UK someday.

I was born in London to an Iranian-British father and an American mother, but I was raised in Louisville, Kentucky. Throughout my childhood, my dad shared fond memories of growing up in the UK, and I became enamored by the idea of living there again.

When deciding where to go for college, it was an easy decision to go to the UK , as I also hold a British passport. But where I grew up, it's not common to go abroad for college . Most of my peers stayed in the South — even moving to New England was considered far.

I applied to a few safety schools in the US but got accepted to the University of Edinburgh. In 2018, I packed my bags and moved to Scotland .

I enjoyed student life in Scotland

At Edinburgh , I could study what I wanted — History — and didn't have to fiddle with other subjects, which would have been required at most liberal arts programs in the US.

The price was also a huge advantage. I paid around $24,500 a year, compared to $67,446 for out-of-state tuition at the University of Chicago, where I had also applied.

As a student under 22, I could travel for free by bus throughout Scotland.

The advantage of studying there was also being able to experience new cultures and visit other European countries .

After graduating, I had no desire to return to the US

I wanted to pursue a master's in medieval history. Although there are so many great departments in the US for religious studies and medieval history, my mentors at school had all studied at Oxbridge — colleges across Oxford and Cambridge. So, in 2022, I followed their advice and pursued a master's in Medieval History at the University of Oxford.

When I finished my master's this year, I still wasn't ready to leave. I didn't want to return to the US because all my friends were in the UK. If I returned, I would have to start again to build connections and friendships.

I was in this middle ground where I wished I could just pack up everything and move everything in my life altogether at once. That's the difficulty of expat life — there's the US in the UK version of myself, and I'm always teetering between two places.

Looking back, I cringe at how obsessed I was with the UK

I was fascinated by William Shakespeare's "Richard III" and adored "Horrible Histories" — a British children's TV show about historical events — and other media that came from the UK.

When you romanticize a place, you think it can do no wrong. After my move, I realized that the UK does not have the glowing hearts around it as I had pictured. It has its quirks and flaws — but I still love it.

When I first got here and felt frustrated about life in the UK, I would remember being a child and seeing a double-decker bus — a symbol of the UK from an international perspective.

I'd look at it intently and think, "This is the magic of the UK. This is where I wanted to be."

I plan to stay in the UK to further my studies

In September, I will start my Ph.D. in Classics at King's College London.

Although I used to think that I'd stay in the UK, I've recently started to think about how my family members are getting old.

I miss my family. I call and text them all the time, and my parents come to visit every so often. As a student, I've had the flexibility to go home around the December holidays. Sometimes, I don't even realize how long it's been since I've seen them in person.

I have four more years in the UK to complete my Ph.D, and I know the US will always be there for me. So, I'm open to returning at some point.

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